Este blog pretende conformarse como un cajón de sastre de relatos personales, críticas de cine, comentarios de situaciones cotidianas, reflexiones personales sobre hechos y problemáticas generales.
Un archivador de apuntes particulares.

24 de marzo de 2018

Relearning No

When you think is over it beats you up completely. Almost back on the floor again. 
It's like an animal which hides in the shadow and grows with your uncertainties.

A still bleeding wound.

Frozen tears.

One step closer and I'm about to break.

A feeling in the stomach that I didn´t have since months ago. An anxiety that becomes presents by making you to throw up.


Let it go physically.

14 de febrero de 2018

Despojos

Quisiera besarte como no te ha besado nadie.
Alejarme de ti y el olor que desprendes,
de olor a carnicería, ahora a dentista.
¿O seré yo?

Atracción caníbal por tu cuello.
Quedarme dormida mientras me abrazas.
Después de veinte años.
Viviendo una vida que no me pertenece.
Dejándome llevar para luego fustigarme.
Sobria de alcohol evaporado.

1 de diciembre de 2017

Follies, the musical

Broadway 1971. We are witnesses of a reunion of old singers and dancers who perform Weismann's Follies before the venue get demolished. Follies is a musical with music and lyrics by Stephen Sondheim and a book by James Goldman. Behind this National Theatre production is Dominic Cooke.

1 de noviembre de 2017

Manifiesto para autoprotegerse


  • Nunca pondré en riesgo mi salud ni mis horas de sueño por nadie.
  • No voy a perder el tiempo con nadie, ni voy a dar segundas oportunidades a alguien que no me aporta nada.
  • No voy a cuidar de nadie, solo de mi misma, hasta que por lo menos la otra persona me demuestre que merece mi cariño, tiempo y atención.
  • Voy a decir que no cuando considere que es justo, no me pienso callar.

2 de octubre de 2017

The essence of me


My love, my love for cinema. I grew up watching classic movies, Black and white films, mostly from Hollywood, two per week, minimum, sometimes even five. I felt in love with the magic of the cinema. The music, the photography, the cameras, all the technique behind, the told histories, the scripts, the dialogues, every director and his peculiar perspective of filming the plot....but the most attractive bit, the actors and their work.

When a movie was good, I totally accepted the history I was watching, in the facts I was seeing. Beyond believing in the actors and their interpretation, I felt like their characters. I was empathising so much that I was getting into the role.

I had dreams where I was a witness of that golden age in Hollywood. I prowl around the sets. I met Hitchcock. I observed Gene Kelly rehearsing a choreography before shooting. I saw how Katherine Hepburn was preparing herself for a role. I dreamt of meeting them all, of being one like them. Someone with the possibility of doing what they do and they do: suffer, love, hate....and convince to whoever is watching me that what is happening is real. To be able to provoke something in the spectator, to touch the audience the same way I felt.

26 de agosto de 2017

Against the tide

Yesterday I prayed for you to come out of my mind.
Today I’ve dreamt with you,
so vivid that I believed it.
All back, old feelings.
Time past but didn’t feel it.
Only the tender, the passion
as it was at the beginning.

I’m becoming sick.

15 de junio de 2017

La búsqueda de la presa


Cuando un animal está malherido la sangre se huele desde lejos, ya sea por mar, tierra o aire. A veces no se ve, se intuye. Frecuentemente es la misma presa la que se expone demasiado, simplemente porque ansía verse deseada, acechada, perseguida, cazada y finalmente despedazada. En algunas ocasiones la criatura se autolesiona y deja lucir sus heridas abiertas a la espera de la llegada de las hienas, más tarde hasta los buitres aparecen al reclamo... Pero el mayor trofeo es la captura de la gran fiera, con quien es más difícil salir vivo del juego. Alguien que además de dejarte hecha pedazos, te drene la sangre. Te deje rota y sin ganas de volver a arriesgar, a jugar de nuevo.